BAD ROMANCE!

I LOVE LADY GAGA! Her new song Bad Romance is the greatest ever! The music video is so amazing. She looks so pretty in it! The video is a creative idea and concept. I'm still not sure of the total story line. This is one of the first times when she doesnt have her face completely covered up and it makes her look more personable. to me she's such a break through artist, and she is fresh and not boring. Many criticize her for being different and dressing "weird" really her outfits are really HIGH FASHION. She's great and known for changing lyrics in certain ways so no one can figure out what she's really saying. On certain songs you can look up the lyrics on many different sites and none of them will be the same. That's what i love about her. She's really good at keeping her personal life out of the media. I'm surprised at how much she's criticized for her dress and not for her life. I love that about her that she keeps it separate. Many people get too obsessed about celebs and it's kinda annoying that people hold them to such high standard but really they're people too. But the public doesnt understand that. Like such items as divorce, affair, drugs, alcohol, things that happen in the real world but people hype them up like they're a big deal. That's what mainly angers me about the media.

Mi Novio

So yesterday my boyfriend nick and i were interviewed by our friend anna for a photo-journalism project of hers. I was really cool to give our perspective of the outside world when it's usually the opposite. For once we were able to talk recently about our relationship. questions like how we met, how we were received by friends, family, and the public, and how long we've been together.

First off, we met on facebook, i know what a way to meet someone right? haha but we hit it off when we finally met in person. That was back in May. All around our friends seem to think this is a good relationship for the both of us. our families have mixed views. My family, my mother was wary at first, mostly because he smoked but he's quit since the first time he met her and he's grown on her. For his family its an unspoken knowledge. His family knows he is gay however, they never talk about it. However, his sister and cousins are like his friends about it and they approve of the relationship. As far as the public is concerned we havent had much negative reactions. We had a very positive one the other day. We were walking to the student center to get starbucks between classes. We were walking hand in hand. A man was walking toward us. We could tell he was going to say something just we didnt know what side of the fence he was on. He looked at us and said, "Good for you guys!" with a bright smile. That basically made our day and we were smiling throughout! We have been technically dating since May however we just recently made it official. So i guess you could say dating for 6 months together for about 3.

Coming Out

Deciding to come out was one of the most difficult decisions I’ve ever had to make. With dealing with people not understanding, bigots, people who feel it’s not natural. Coming out for me was natural. I had and inkling in the back of my head that I was attracted to men since I was very young. I can remember in 2^nd grade I had a crush on a 5^th grade teacher. I remember telling myself in middle school that it was just a phase. Because in elementary school I didn’t know what it meant to be gay or straight, for me it just seemed more natural to be attracted to men.

My very first boyfriend was on the swim team with me in high school. On the bus ride home from one of our biggest meets I sat next to him. I saw him type something in his phone. He showed it to me. It said, “Hey can I ask you something?”

I texted him back, “Yessir?”

“You have to promise not to get mad.”

“I wont get mad,” I texted back.

“Well, I think I like you.” He had a petrified look in his face like he had just seen a ghost.

“Well I like you too.”

That’s where it all began. It wasn’t a me in my head saying okay today I’m not gonna like girls. It was nothing like that. It was more of a, “I can finally be myself” kind of moment.

Later that week I decided to tell my mom. It was Friday, pizza night at home, and I told my mom I had something to tell her. So we go sit down in the family room and I try to say it, but then realized I wasn’t able to talk. So I found a piece of paper and a pen and wrote: “I’m gay, I’m in a relationship with Jordan on the swim team.”

She replied, “ Can we talk about this?”

“What’s there to talk about?”

“Well I just feel like you’ve liked girls before and you’ve been with them before. Why all of the sudden??”

“Mom I’ve liked guys for as long as I can remember. It’s just like right now I’m able to be who I am and not feel like I have to hide anymore.”

“I just don’t want you to be one of those people around the circle in R.E.N.T.”

After things had settled down and she had stopped crying everything else seemed smooth, minus my brother’s little freak out about it. He had been reading my IM’s with a friend from school over my shoulder. The last IM he saw said, “You should really date him!”

My brother said, “What the HELL does that mean,” as he pointed at the screen.